(An Excerpt From My Journey Into Unprescribed)

Most people grow up believing doctors are the steady ones — the anchors, the fixers, the ones who hold everyone else together. What they don’t realize is that many of us are breaking quietly behind the scenes. I didn’t understand that truth fully until the night my own life collapsed in on itself… the night that eventually became the opening pages of Unprescribed, the book I never thought I’d be brave enough to write.

For years, I carried the silent weight of trauma, single motherhood, relentless responsibility, and the pressure to “hold it together” because I had an M.D. after my name. I was de-prescribing psychiatric medications every day, helping people navigate crises, supporting others through the darkest chapters of their lives — all while my own nervous system was screaming under the surface. When I finally tried to come off the medications I had relied on to survive, everything I had built began to unravel. My withdrawal wasn’t gentle. It was electric, terrifying, disorienting — a mental health crisis hidden behind a calm professional exterior.

Most people don’t realize how many physicians quietly face this same battle: the burnout, the anxiety, the dependency on medications to keep going, the shame of struggling when we “shouldn’t.” We’re trained to hide it. We’re trained to be invincible. But the truth is that doctors are human — not machines — and the system we work in often breaks us long before we ever admit it out loud. That’s why I’ve chosen to tell the whole story, not just the polished, socially acceptable version.

My healing didn’t come from white-coat medicine. It came from hitting rock bottom, from surrendering, from plant medicine, from ibogaine and Bufo, from finally seeing the roots of my pain instead of numbing them. It came from understanding trauma in a way medical school never taught. It came from learning to listen to my body instead of overriding it. Those nights — the ones I thought would destroy me — ended up becoming the turning point of my life. They’re also the heart of my book.

In Unprescribed, I’m writing the truth that psychiatry rarely acknowledges: that psychiatric medications often create the very symptoms they’re meant to treat, that withdrawal can shatter even the strongest among us, and that healing cannot be reduced to a pill or a protocol. This isn’t just a memoir; it’s a mirror held up to an entire system. It’s the story of how a doctor became the patient, how survival became rebirth, and how I walked myself out of the darkest night of my life and into a new way of practicing medicine — one rooted in truth, trauma healing, and soul.

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